Yesterday was one of the most beautiful Easters I have ever experienced. It was a special day for us at Breakthrough and we worshipped our Savior! It was truly incredible. While I don't have all the answers I would like to have...like why we are still unable to have another baby and why we still haven't been chosen for adoption I know that I know that God is in control and that Jesus had me on His mind when He died on that cross. It doesn't get any more personal than that! He lives!!!
Benjamin memorized a verse for church yesterday as all the children shared during the service. It was so amazing to see him and hard to believe that he is big enough to share scripture. He continues to amaze us though and now his mind is constantly going and the questions he comes up with often challenge Nate and I when we try to answer them. Wednesday night after church Benjamin was upset. It took awhile for me to get to the real reason he was acting this way. Finally he said he was upset because he didn't have a brother or sister. He said, "Why is it taking so long? We prayed about this..." Well, what could I say? I wonder the same thing everyday. All I could do was sit and hold him while he cried and tell him that all we could do was pray and believe. Tears were slipping out of my eyes and there wasn't much I could do. Being sad and disappointed is real and in that moment I believe God showed me that while I have been trying so hard to keep Benjamin from feeling this way about the adoption taking time, it is the reality. Of course the danger is in sitting there and stewing in all of those emotions....many people do and believe me it is tempting but because I serve a mighty God who has a clear plan and purpose I choose and Nate chooses and we are teaching Benjamin to choose to live expectantly. We ARE going to have our baby. God promised and He cannot lie. We heard clearly that our family WILL increase. I know I am a mommy of many...Benjamin IS a big brother. Satan you are defeated!!!!
So, my friends, please pray fervently for our baby. I told Nate that I want to hold my precious baby and he/she be ours by Mother's Day! Maybe you say wishful thinking...I see it as faith, the evidence of things hoped for. THE CRIB IS READY!
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I will pray that prayer with you my friend, what Joy that would bring my heart! I love you!!
"In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation" PSALM 5:3
You have put the wheels in motion. You are not just praying that God provides this family with another little one...you are preparing for this special gift (already having the crib and nursery ready). You have planted the seeds and have "prepared for the rain" to come and bless this family again.
Love you much...
" For all I know the plans I have for you - this is the LORD'S declaration - plans for your welfare not for disaster, to give YOU a future and a hope! " JEREMIAH 29:11
I pray daily for your family to receive that blessed child! I KNOW it will be soon. Be comforted in knowing there is much love around you all. I too hope God will bless me with a child someday. For that .. I know how you feel.
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